I'm a puddle of melted butter!
Okay, so ive had the bee energised red packet ones before. Never noticed a big deal on them. I've been addicted to energy drinks for years because of my bipolar crashes. Ive gave them up in the past and noticed no change in my energy its super high in my mind but with no willpower or motivation to actually do anything. Stuck in a depression. I'm such a tense person as it is but I just feel like ive no get up and go at all. My mind never stops buzzing thats why i was so drawn to the unbeelievable range in the first place.
Anyway I didnt come here to rave about the energy pills for me ive tried everything in that department and it hasn't worked, because i dont belive energy was ever needed, but more a dopamine effect to trigger a happy mind. I've also been stuck with insomnia and struggled to sleep a lot of nights and my bipolar just acts like a naughty child. So disobedient. So ive tried mushroom blended things before, ashwaghanda, CBD this and that little yellow packaged rescue stuff, pillow sprays, wrist oils, bubble baths... Nothing. I gave up. I have been off the energy drinks for over a month now, but still not sleeping.
So, I split up with my man cause I just had enough of life. 2 days after my grandad passed away and I wasn't sleeping 10 days since the first event and this morning I felt sick and dizzy. I've been forcing myself to eat and couldn't seem to settle enough to sleep and with three kids it just hasn't been a great time at all
I've booked myself, mum, sister and my girls a weekend away to eyemouth, but the thought if the travel was making me feel worse as I take panic attacks on journeys especially on a bus.
So anywho, I decided for the journey to get these. Thought what the hell I'll try anything im that desperate. It taken me the longest time to write this because my mind is in slow motion. Im not thinking anything other than what im doing now, I cant believe how good I feel. Actually think id cry if I had strength to but I feel like a leaf floating in the wind at times as my tummy keeps doing this satisfying floaty thing, other times I feel like ive melted into the pillow like butter. I dont know if any of that makes any sense and I dont care. Im not bothered about spelling or punctuation, as a dyslexic person ive always had to be careful, but ive just come over with the feeling like, nah. That doesnt matter all that matters as people have to know. Ive never felt safe my entire life and right now I feel safe.
Im drug and alcohol free. I just took a little pill 💊 and I feel big effects. Im a customer for life as long as im having this feeling on these tablets I will keep taking them for when I need them most, like sleep and travel. 100 stars 🌟 im off to sleep 😴 I just had to do this now since im away to relax tomorrow. And with these I will ne able to actually relax.